This is how i cope;
Ana is your secret friend. When you eat- you get fat, she starves- she gets skinnier and Ana is very, very frail. When you starve - you get skinny, Ana gets the food you would have eaten- she gets fat. You need to try and keep the balance between the two of you; too much for you and Ana dies. Too much for Ana and you die, which sort of kills her by default if you think about it. Always under 800 calories a day. Ana is your best friend, and you love her as much as you love yourself. She’s making you better, and in return you make sure she gets food - and always apologize to her when you do eat. Always hold yourself accountable, and imagine that she’s watching while you eat. Talk to her in your mind, it’s all right. You’re not crazy.